Today was a sad day. We have been told the last two Wednesdays that we would be submitted to embassy and it didn't happen. Last week I was bummed, this week I was sad, I cried this morning at work and all my wonderful coworkers were very sympathetic. Thanks girls, you're the best! Our agency is being proactive and getting more paperwork that has delayed families in embassy clearance before the embassy ask for it. I'm grateful to them for taking care of us and helping to make sure we pass as quickly as possible, BUT...when you are expecting one thing and another happens it's really hard. Once we are submitted it could still be 4-6 weeks before we are cleared to travel back. It's been a month since we have seen our son. We really miss him and want him home. We received some new pics and his eyes are terrible, worse than before. I want to get him to the eye specialist and get some Zyrtec and Benadryl in him. He has an eye condition called vernal keratoconjunctivitis, in layman's that is severe eye allergies. He's being treated for it but I want a fresh approach, his eyes look miserable.
People have said to me they can't imagine how we feel with him being so far away. I was running last night and thinking about this and I tried to find a way to explain it. The best way I can is imagine you have your newborn baby that you are with for a week, you love it, become attached to it and then you have to leave it over 7000 miles away. But imagine that newborn baby is 7, has been abandoned multiple times, knows that you are its new mom and dad and then you abandon him too. That's how I feel. I feel like we abandoned him, we gave him hope and then we left. I know children are more resilient and families that have met him since we left have told us he's a happy, polite child. One even said he told them "Kentucky". I'm hoping he knows deep down we are coming back but the longer it takes the more I wonder. Please pray for us. Once we get him home there will be more hurdles but for now we just want him with us and we will deal with the other stuff later.
Look at those sweet brothers.
Our favorite picture from the trip. Our twins.
Our 3 handsome boys.
My heart breaks for your family... for you as a mom, for Mike as a dad, for the boys missing their brother and for that sweet, sweet soul half way around the world just waiting to be home forever. I know God's plan for your family is perfect and this HARD, HARD time will be a distant memory once he is here and learns to trust that you all are NEVER going to abandon that boy and he never has to be alone again. My heart goes out to you all and my prayers will stay constant until, and even beyond, him being here in the states with you all!!!!!!
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